How do you feel about writing at this point?

How do you feel about writing at this point?
At this point in my writing career I still dislike writing, I cannot seem to be able to pass that fact I could write. Fighting everyday for myself to write when I am aware, not everyone will read what I have written I have no problem because it is up to me what I have written. When it is another reading, I just cannot seem to get it together. Throws me in that loop. Yes, my ideas of my writing have changed. That is, I cannot write as I thought I could, maybe because I did not put forth the effort that I should have to get feedback. Then maybe I would not be fighting in that loop with myself.